force an extrovert to be introvert

terrible terrible

i hate being alone

if i can make it though to song kran alive i'll be ok.
maybe not
maybe april is pushing it

i don't like my job, i do love the students. my boss came on to me. and told me i was a bad teacher. what a way to bring down a depressed person, to tell them they are bad at the only thing they do. and to know that they don't have many people to talk to and take advantage of that sux...because you are taking away ppl they know and putting them in a more difficult position.

would i be happy again at home?

depression is a disease of loneliness, and the privacy of a depressed person is not a dignity; it is a prison.

i wish for strength.

always the exception, never the rule

i used to be the most adventurous. now i am among so many amazing travelers. need to spice this shit up. show them what it's all about and become the exception again.

immaculate conception today

inception day?

exception def.

thought

Quite often when I talk to people I don't want to bother being in a conversation so I ask a question that I know will get a long response.

That way I can be alone with my thoughts while they ramble about whatever, I can get away with just staring at a person for a while and not have to worry about being caught staring because you are supposed to look at someone then, and if I choose to listen then I learn very interesting information and gain wisdom.

And soon I will be very wise because I really like doing this.

activities : eating

i don't know what it is, but ever since i ate past full point i don't have a stopping limit. i'm full all of the time so i don't know when i'm actually hungry.

plus i'm bored a lot. so i eat.

and there's no nutritional information...in english. so who knows what i'm consuming.

i just need a week of not eating to go back to normal. that starts tomorrow...tonight i already had an omelet, sticky rice, and 2 japanese pastries, oh and a milk shake. fuck.

what do i do at work

i am working from 7:45 until 5. and i am in the classroom for 3 to 5 hours of that time. so what am i supposed to do with the other time?

well i suppose i should plan for the next lessons, but that takes like 10 min. unless i choose to do an elaborate plan, which i never do because that would lead to disappointment when they don't get it. so i prefer to go in with little planning and be pleasantly surprised.

there are these forms that we have to fill out to record our teaching i try to write slowly to take up more time. and then i have to fill out the online attendance thing when i'm done teaching for the day. that takes 4 minutes, unless the internet is slow then maybe 12.

i have to keep my desk clear, since i failed the first desk inspection. i didn't know they would be checking the drawers and i had loose papers in them. so that takes a little time to be organized.

i give the kids lots of stupid homework so that i will have something to occupy myself - ie take my sweet time grading that shit.

i spend a lot of time eating. we get an hour lunch break, but that doesn't take up enough of my free time, so i walk and get snacks at other breaks i have. and i eat and make phone calls to the people i know will be awake.

with the remaining time i dick around on the internet...when it's working.
i try to avoid fbook since my bosses sit directly behind me in the office.
i look up quotes, listen to http://www.themusiciv.com/the-music-iv-player/, spend some time on cnn, today i just discovered jango and i've been listening to jim gaffigan, i look up teaching plans and activities, read blogs, look up art, read about pop culture. i write emails. i stare into microsoft word at old documents.

sometimes i journal or make lists in my notebook so it looks like i'm producing something. in reality i am making lists of all the bars i've been to and who i went with and what i drank. or remembering quotes from people. or listing what i want my dad to bring me from america.

and then with the remaining time i stare in the distance.

i can write a bar guide for chiang mai

i was unaware i had been to so many bars in Chaing Mai, until it was pointed out to me...

1. Small House
2. One Love
3. Spicy
4. Zoe in Yellow
5. Cafe del Sol
6. Rasta Cafe
7. Heaven Beach
8. The trippy reggae place near zoe
9. Riverside 1
10. Riverside 2
11. the Good view
12. The Brasserie
13. Blar Blar Bar
14. Augus
15. Dukes
16. Pinocchio
17. Monkey Club
18. Warm-up
19. Mo-C Mo-L
20. that one restaurant/bar we went to to celebrate graduating
21. the irish pub
22. the place near tapae gate entrance
23. smile bar
24. reggae bar
25. rooftop bar
26. Barroloco
27. Northgate jazz bar
28. Domdum
29. Danyli
30. Zoe in Yellow Garden
31. ba ba go go bar
32. blues 7
33. guesthouse
34. drunken flower
35. john's place
36. cue ball
37. my home - bar not really my home
38. the hut house place
39. dawan dang
40. 2nd floor
41. chaing mai bar
42. CU Corner
43. Ikko yino
44. The Glass Onion
45. fabrique

this is dream frances

Mally :
Frances

I had a dream about you

It was strange

We were hanging out with Bill at his lake house, you met him randomly while he was filming a movie and he was in Thailand, and you guys became good friends.
And then you really wanted Hot Tamales, like the candy.
And so you got some and wanted him and I to eat them too, and Bill wouldn't cause he said it was too hot and you smacked him and called him a sissy...I just laughed.
Yep and then we watched The Hand that Rocks the Cradle

Did they end up together?

Did Claire and Bender end up together when they were back at school?

Eh no. Yes, they shared a passionate kiss and they both wanted it really bad. There may have been some times that they hung out, maybe there were a couple of times when they were at the same party or bar. and there was always the sexual tension between them. but they never became boyfriend-girlfriend. and there were probably other encounters between them, forbidden touches if you will. but no sex. and they def hardly spoke to each other at school. it was just too weird. and they had their places.

if they did meet regularly for breakfast as a group then yes, a relationship might have blossomed, but since that is just the name for detention (the breakfast club - thank you mally) it didn't.

if you were on the titanic and it was sinking would you fight

I've had dreams about falling - like every night.

the most intense - the one where I died. I fell for a while and then I hit. I hit and I sunk in. and I was gone.

Dreams about falling supposedly happen when you feel a loss of control in life. ok I get that. but if I let myself fall in the dreams then I am ok with no control, no?

"not even animal planet does it for me anymore"

Kyle - frances. you know what happened at work today?

Frances - did you get bit again

Kyle - no worse. a dog tried to hump my leg. and i just kept trying to walk away from him but he just kept following me around the room, trying to grab my leg.

Frances - ew

Kyle - yeah. it went on for like 10 minutes. he eventually got side tracked trying to hump another dog which was a lot better from my point of view point of view sounds weird. like i watched. i didnt watch i just wanted to clarify.

i'm in between stages

Culture Shock Stage 2: Denial

You are caught between the positive vacation feelings and newer negative feelings stemming from having to face the reality of living here for two or three years. You are still excited but somehow the feelings are more forced. For many, the initial reaction is to deny the negative feelings, or starting to feel that you must be doing something wrong because of course you should be excited.

Culture Shock Stage 3: Anger

Attempts to deny have failed. Now the negative feelings come flying out in ugly chunks. You begin to dwell on the negative aspects of life in the host country. You feel unsure, anxious about the future. You feel like you don't deserve this; your experience abroad should be a daily diet of PBS-like discovery.

I've found in myself that this stage is often triggered by some bad day-like event that instead of seeing as one of those things, I instead blame on the host country. Trains can run late anywhere in the world, but if you find yourself saying “Those darn [INSERT DEROGATORY TERM FOR HOST COUNTRY PEOPLE] can't even get a train to run on time” you are thick into this stage.

Next is Escape

Then Depression.

Fuck

the last dance

turns out everyone likes to recount the 5 spot evening the next day, and thank god for that cause there is a lot to remember. below kyle (mostly) and anna hessa tell me what happened.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lz0fnvoNoJo

you yelling vodka at me last night is now one of my fondest memories of you. it was so belligerent.

Kyle: so what were you guys drinking earlier tonight?

Frances: VODDDDDDKAAAAAA

Frances: I LOVE THIS SONGGGGGGGGGGGG

i also remember you were on the stage, lost your balance, and grabbed anna hessa's head to balance yourself.

i remember on a little bit softer now you were getting low and you almost fell over. twice.

and during down in mexico you kind of danced, then texted, drank water, then texted.

i also remember you saying, "watch it buddy" which i though was really funny

we were walking to the jeep so i could get more film, and you could get your stuff from kathleen's car. In this process you stepped on my foot and went Watch it buddy and then you made a mean face at me

seriously. this happened. and then i just laughed and laughed and laughed

and then i think you told me you were going to beat me up on the sidewalk by kathleen's car which just made me laugh more

no frances. seriously. im not making this up. that's really what happened. you weren't really mean about it, but you were acting that way. i mean you were laughing as well but for some reason you stepped on my foot and started acting like a tough guy

you really dont remember watch it buddy? we joked around about it for like 10 minutes outside.

after you said watch it buddy i said something like seriously frances, what are you going to do about it? thats when you said something about beating me up and leaving me on the sidewalk

also, when we were inside, i said something jokingly to you and you punched me in the stomach.

and then you stopped talking to me for a while when i said "are you ok? you're not feeling like you'll throw up when i start driving you home right?"

and you said that was really mean of me to say and you stopped talking to me.

but as drunk as you were last night you always knew exactly how many beers you had bought me. i tried for a while to trick you into buying me a third and you just weren't having any part of it. some how your brain always kept perfect track of how many beers you owed me.

it was really quite impressive.

there was one time i almost got it. you said,"I have five dollars left and its for your other beer" (which would have been three) and then i said great lets go get it when we get back inside. and then bam. "No. wait. i already bought you both your beers right? I did. You're not getting another beer from me."

i also remember the second beer you got me. we were waiting in line and you kept saying how you wanted to go dance. i then said i'd bring you your beer. when i finally got them, i had mine in one hand, yours in the other, and my camera kind of balancing in my arm and i pushed my way through the whole crowd to find that you weren't there. then i had to walk all the way back through and found you near the front door.

anna - i remember we had an epic kiss

oh and kesha was there

Maybe I got too Comfortable with Kyle

"i never thought when we started hanging out. in just a months time frances will tell me something about fisting." kyle

1. the fisting
2. "if i touch you inappropriately it is unintentional, i don't have control of my body right now"
3. the sexual harassment
4. finding the right spot
5. penetrating
6. joking about him slinging his stuff around
7. when you drive us will you take your top off?
8. the nipple
9. feeling him up
10. the hand gestures

Do your Gemini Thing

I found this website a few months ago and I'm sold on it. - http://www.gotohoroscope.com/compatibility.html

It's been pretty accurate in my experience:

Take Kath's and my relationship for example... no we are not interested in one another. no, I take that back. She does like cats. jk grapes

Gemini and Libra love compatibility
These two air signs are well suited intellectually and every other way. It is difficult for the representatives of both signs to control their passions. If love makes this world spinning around then this couple gives an initial push for it. This is an ideal partnership. Both favor similar changes of interests. In the case of this pair, Libra is the judge and Gemini is the responsive jury in the nuptial courthouse. The combination's intellectual and artistic interests are compatible. Both sides of the Gemini nature will be under stood by the Libra. Both of them are passionate and nobody is too jealous at the same time . They characters have a lot in common , and they perfectly understand each other in bedroom. Libra is highly sexed and their lovemaking will never go lacking. Their sex-life will never be dull. This is a perfect connection; warm and happy married couple.

You have the ability to win me over with your libraness.



if i was ever to be with jack this would be the result -

Gemini and Cancer love compatibility
Gemini's sparkle immediately intrigues Cancer, but Cancer won't find security with fickle, fly-by-night Gemini. The Cancer's self-confidence will decrease during his dialogue with the changeable Gemini, who are fond of pleasures. The unguided sexual energy of the Gemini will create problems for the Cancer. Cancer is the home loving type and will be content to stay there and lock the rest of the world outside, but Gemini would soon become restless and angry over this as he/she is very sociable and likes to be around other people; having no wish to feel as if they are a prisoner in their own home. Life will quickly become unbearable to Gemini. Cancers are driven by emotion and feelings and generally prefer the constant. Gemini's unstoppable movement will prove unsettling to Cancer. Though it is a very emotional connection, the long term connection is almost impossible here.

10 in '10

Number one was a hippy with dread locks and a tattoo of kentucky.
Number two was a musician and his illicited a "how dare you" response.
Number three was a friend who ruined everything in asking.
Number four was an artist.
Number five was a bad ass who introduced me to the world I wanted to be in and the person I wanted to be.
Number six was a soccer player from Scotland.
Number seven was friends with the one I really wanted.
Number eight was a drug dealer; probably the worst.
Number nine was a dare.
Number ten was an alcoholic.

blah blah blah boring

eleven - canadian
twelve - thai how dare you
thirteen - brazilian
fourteen - housemate
fifteen - south african
sixteen - thai got painted

The Secret

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBGfoOVn4o4

Did I cause myself to get in the accident? I've imagined smashing into something in a car, the crunch of metal and the busting glass. I thought of being in an upturned car and being screamed at to stay still while they get the jaws of life. Did all of the imagining cause the wreck? Cause me to be careless enough to not see the truck speeding over the hill?

When we were pregaming in the car before 5 spot Kathleen found my book that I keep in the car. "Plan on doing some light reading?"
"I always keep a book in my car in case I get in an accident and have to wait for the police to come."
I didn't read the book as I waited. Didn't even think about it.

A New Diet for All You Fattys

I created a new diet. it's very effective for all trying to lose weight. this is what you do - party at night, lots of dancing and alcohol. The dancing is good for firming you up, also walking is good so be sure you do some.

During the day your body is trying to rid itself of the alcohol, there might be throwing up - this is good, more effective in the weight loss . Warning - when you wake up the next morning and feel like you are going to vom, don't take ibuprofen first, it tastes terrible and burns and numbs, gahhhh you just don't want to do it. You may need to eat, it's ok. I recommend granola bars or a slice or two of pizza or cereal. or pasta (careful with this one)

You need to drink a lot of caffeine during the day to feel normal - like you haven't had all that alcohol. This will make your heart race (burn cals), and it fills you up so you won't be eating so much.

You might sleep a lot the next day; this is good in that you won't be eating. If you are too busy to sleep, maybe you are also too busy to eat - very good. Maybe you will sleep late so only end up having a snack and then dinner later, and then maybe breakfast when you are trying to sober up to drive home (again careful) - better just to stop drinking earlier.

Most importantly - you need to stay so busy you won't think of eating, the caffeine helps with this. oh and you need to drink a lot of water.

PROS to this diet - YOU LOSE WEIGHT!!! and sometimes you feel like you are floating.

CONS to this diet - you might hallucinate and/or pass out (prob cause you dehydrated yourself), you get a tad loopy (lack of sleep and nutrition, so take vitamins?)



Now just watch those lbs melt off.

Don't forget to drink water, and stop eating meat - that will make the weight drop faster.

AND WHAT IF I GET SHOT?!?!?!?!?!?!

there was a gun on the amp apparently, pink and alec saw it. i didn't. i saw the coke though. i was fine with it. but a gun?

i mean dealing is risky business so i guess they need it? i just keep thinking of that scene in boogie nights and it seems so possible.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENN-t1yKWww

i am beloved. they might not shoot me. on the other hand, coke heads have the rep for being paranoid and unpredictable.

there should be a lot of ppl at my funeral.

and i once said that if i was to die young it would be by gunshot, prob while protecting someone else.

did i just choose my death?

they're still exciting and cool. i'm still going to hang out with them.

Am I Equal the Douche?

@ 5 spot


I don't ever remember the name of the guy I'm dancing with, this has been kind of embarrassing.

I'm kind of shallow.

I avoid some people but fake a smile and a how are you.

Sometimes I promise to dance with someone and then I avoid him.

Riddle Me This

What are boys' intentions and expectations when they go out or go to bars? I know girls, girls want attention and expect to be looked at or talked to, maybe strike up a friendship or more - depending on the girl. I want to know what the expectations of the counterparts are. What do they think about as their getting ready? What are they expecting to have accomplished? Do they think that far ahead?

I often feel that guys just go to bars to get someone to hook up with. Maybe that's only the guys who come to me - but why me? I don't think I give off the sex vibe. Maybe I do though, maybe I can use this to my advantage.

By this age (twentyish) I know how to get someone to approach me, it took some practice but I think I have a handle. And not just me, my friends know what to wear and how to act to get attention. However, this attention only seems to attract a certain kind of guy. We keep getting douche bags, guys who will stare intently into your eyes thinking you want to make out with them too, guys who will stick their gross smoker tounges in your mouth when you thought it might be ok to kiss them, and guys who after an evening of bonding over common interests and dancing ask "your place or mine?"

Where did I go wrong? What did I do to make you think that I would go home with you? Was it when you offered me a drink and I took it? Was it when I accidentally bumped into you butt? Was it when I was laughing with my friends and I drunkenly caught your eye?

Maybe it wasn't me. Maybe these guys were trained by other girls, ruined by other girls and they think that they can do the same things to me that worked before.

I have been wondering this for a while, so I decided to ask some guys in my class what they did. They seem like good guys and I can't imagine them acting so douchey so I wanted to know what their thought process was. How can I change my act to get a guy more like them, who probably wouldn't expect me to go home wth him after I was just being friendly.

The boys weren't serious in their answer and I don't think understood what I was asking - this was their response --

Here is another question that I posed to the boys:

say you go to a bar, you see the girl of your dreams (or one that is deeply interesting) what do you do?
on a related, but different note, (because the boys said that they go to a bar to drink and that's it) do you only go to bars to drink? you can do that at home.

No Shit Sherlock

francesii 22:08: oh and guess what i found out!

francesii 22:09: it is a family secret

francesii 22:09: they said i didn't need to tell you but i want to sooo bad

francesii 22:09: i love to gossip

unknowndja 22:09:

what is it?

francesii 22:09: are you ready?

unknowndja 22:09:

yes

francesii 22:09: grandmama was married before she married granddad

unknowndja 22:09:

no shit sherlock

francesii 22:09: i kept asking dad about it and he got very mad

francesii 22:10: what?

unknowndja 22:10:

yeah i already knew that

unknowndja 22:10:

thats not a family secret thats a matter of fact!

unknowndja 22:10:

but i don't know the details

francesii 22:10: what?!

francesii 22:11: who told you?

francesii 22:11: you dont know any details?

unknowndja 22:11:

it was openly said before

francesii 22:11: by who

unknowndja 22:11:

you didn't know?

francesii 22:11: how old was she

unknowndja 22:11:

i can't remember

unknowndja 22:11:

she was young

unknowndja 22:11:

did you watch that banksy video?

francesii 22:12: no i didn't know! i was talking about women in the 40s and how they weren't wearing white wedding dresses and i used grandmama as an example and dad goes - she was married before

unknowndja 22:12:

check out revok1.com too

francesii 22:12: i paused it but i am watching it

unknowndja 22:13:

ok, yeah but i was told a long time ago and didn't think anything of it

unknowndja 22:13:

i'm guessing she murdered him

francesii 22:13: dammit i can't believe no one told me

unknowndja 22:14:

or granddad got in a knife fight with him over grandmama and granddad won and got to keep grandmama

francesii 22:14: and i was holding it in since they said not to tell you

francesii 22:14: or he died in the war

unknowndja 22:14:

grandma probably told me come to think of it

francesii 22:15: they didn't have any kids?

francesii 22:15: why you and not me

unknowndja 22:15:

not that i was told

francesii 22:15: cause you are in a serious relationship

francesii 22:15: goddamn

unknowndja 22:15:

cause i carry on out name!

unknowndja 22:15:

goshdarn

unknowndja 22:15:

our*

francesii 22:15: sigh

francesii 22:15: this is frustrating

unknowndja 22:16:

sorry to burst your bubble

francesii 22:16: i want to know more

unknowndja 22:16:

maybe you are going down a road you don't want to be going down

francesii 22:16: how do i not want to go down this road

unknowndja 22:16:

I just wanted to say that to make this like a horror movie.

francesii 22:16: hahahah

unknowndja 22:17:

well if grandma is a murderer and you find out, she might murder you

unknowndja 22:17:

and an epic fight follows

unknowndja 22:17:

at her house

unknowndja 22:17:

and you end up pushing her down the stairs

unknowndja 22:17:

and telling the police she fell

unknowndja 22:18:

roll credits

unknowndja 22:18:

i'm thinking m. night shamalan

francesii 22:18: HAHAHAHAHA

unknowndja 22:18:

and jack white's wife as you

francesii 22:19: hahahahaha

francesii 22:19: kathleen is cracking up

unknowndja 22:19:

I will be played by charlie from lost

francesii 22:19: i read her the plot

francesii 22:19: he's a little guy

francesii 22:19: so we are played by english actors?

unknowndja 22:20:

yes we have to change the setting so people don't know the truth

francesii 22:20: hahahahah

unknowndja 22:21:

I'm awesome

unknowndja 22:22:

ok well i'm going to go take a shower and try and study for my test tomorrow.

francesii 22:22: oh david you kept me laughing

unknowndja 22:23:

Have a good one, and good luck with the racunteurs gig.

unknowndja 22:23:

any time frances

unknowndja 22:23:

bye! love you. cya, Grapes.

francesii 22:23: bye!

francesii 22:23: love you

Project: Naked Graduation

Grapes and I are doing graduation naked. I had plans to diet and exercise. Alas, I haven't had time. I haven't had time to eat or sleep either.

so, good news: I have dropped weight from eating so little and am almost as skeletal as I want to be.

bad news: no sleep = not a lot of control.

no beauty sleep = no beauty?

that's sad.

the night and i have decided to get serious

Dear Night, with dates as good as these we should get serious.
Dear Frances, I thought you'd never ask! Love, Night



a glittery preparation
dancin
avoidin past, present, and future suitors
a little filmin
a little walkin
whiskey and beer
zucchini and brie
family history of mermaids and werewolves
coffee with cops
a hike
a glorious sunrise
lost keys
and a run home for work

you absolutely positively bore me

thank god I have cool exciting friends instead of you.

talking to you bores me
your haircut bores me
your voice bores me
the way you talk bores me
your sense of humor bores me
your walk bores me
your clothes bore me
your smile bores me
in fact your whole face bores me
your intelligence bores me
your car bores me
the way you drive bores me
your posture bores me
your taste in television bores me
your taste in movies bores me
the food you like bores me
your cooking bores me
your religion bores me
your furniture bores me
your emotions bore me
your computer desktop bores me

inspired by pink's encounter with harmonica douche

a dude once talked down to me for being catholic. so i stopped talking to him he didn't get it and is now known as "the stalker" nick name

however, i make fun of protestants all the time. it's a double standard that is ok.

NICKNAMES

Kath aka Kathleen Grapes - Kathleen Wells
Anna Hessa - Anna Hessa
The Stalker - joshua a. - i still have his address if anyone wants it.
Potsy McGee - Max
Harmonica Douche - Greg Hommert
Shakespeare - Matt King
Dreds - Andy Johnson
Lars - Mark Rutgers
Kevin - Drew
Kathleen's guy - the Canadian
Oliver - Matt Gulliver
The Bald Guy
Chocolate Boy - Corey?
Blane - ok, real name
Luke - the bartender @5spot
he who should not be named - voldemort
J wu - jennie wu.

THE WOMEN

just a couple of people with vaginas who do/did pretty well. mostly they are ppl who rock it, driven baby.

ok here are the ladies -
the power women:
Judith
Athena
Elizabeth I
Elizabeth II
Artemisia Gentilesci
Kelly Cutrane
Paris Geller - yes a fictional character but so cool
Dr. Christina Yang - again fictional but so driven - like paris
Dr. Judy Bullington
Jo March - little women
Mary Pat Turner
Lady Gaga


Sylvia Plath
Tina Fey
Anne Sexton
Gloria Steinman
Betty Friedan
Florence Welsch
Meryl Streep
Drew Barrymore
Kirstin Dunst
Renee Zellweger
Kate Winslet
Cleopatra
Siouxie Sioux
Karen Oh
Uma Thurman
Lucille Ball
Kathy Griffin
Ellen Degenerous
Mary Cassatt
Kathe Kollwitz
Julie Andrews
Marie Curie
Coco Chanel
Mary
Jane Austen
Sandra Day O'Connor
Amelia Earhart
Alison Mosshart
Joan Crawford
Betty Davis
Nora Ephron
Vicky Donor
and my aunt Jama

v day eve

per pink's request - she wanted a blog of an account of the evening

Katie and I were very against going out on V Day Eve, but we did anyway.

went to the rock showcase - 2 of 4 bands were good. usual.

then went to the very lovely 5 spot. i saw some lamey chips there from belmont - yucko - they found my cool spot and now they've ruined it with there bullshit. kathleen stood with an elbow in her face for a while.

this is boring to blog about.

we went to some burrito place - wow i just remembered i took a bite of floor burrito for a dollar. huh the stuff that comes back to you - and pink ate pork. she then rushed us off so she could get porked by some guy.

the grammy awards

ok, this is a little over due

i went to the 2010 grammy's in LA at the staples center
I worked the radio remotes that were happening thurs and fri before the big sunday.

job: talent escort
sounds a little wrong, but that's because the dang hookers took the title escort from the actual escorts. I was leading the talent (the stars) around to different radio and a couple filmed interviews. this was all backstage at the grammy's. so... all of us working backstage knew a little about what was going to happen on the big night because we heard them practicing. we were forbidden to tell, also forbidden to talk about what we saw and heard go down - aka gossip gossip gossip.

thursday i was the escort to the millionare matchmaker and then all american rejects - ps those guys were so awesome, def ppl that i would hang around with. friday i had lifehouse and mick fleetwoods blues band. and just because i was leading around those ppl doesn't mean that i didn't talk to or see others. i totes did. def was around lmfao and spoke to dr. drew and mackenzie philips. and got to see slash and omg so many other ppl. btw macy gray is huge - not fat but soooo tall.

ok, so we had the day off sat so we went to the beach

sunday we went to the pretelecast party/show - the awards that were not shown on tv. i got to see many ppl here too, and stood right next to imogen heap for a while and phoenix.

then went to the show. had good tickets. it was AMAZING. a rockin concert. love.

next year oscars and/or grammy's not picky. oooo unless i am no longer in the US. idk. well, we will see.

Kathleen did it again

sooooo skipping 5 spot this week, but it was a week ago today that Kathleen booty danced. aka. grinded, popped and locked, grunted, grundled, shook it with another woman. this one was clearly a woman though and she accidentily bumped into kath when she was dancing with her friends. baahahahahahah, kath, you crack me up.




this pic is from the first time we went though, not last week.

ok, i need to get to sleep and rest up for theeeeee trip to LA for the Grammys.
suck on that.

Dear Boys,

I can see through your pervy ways.

• Do not bump your penis on me when we're dancing, that's gross and that's why I don't like to dance.

• When I am dancing with my friends at a bar that's all I'm doing, I'm not there to find a random hookup. And I will not hookup with you.

• Do not add me as a friend on facebook to flirt with me on facebook chat.

• Don't ask me to buy beer for you.

• Do not snuggle up on my chest and say you could lie there forever. That's gay, and clingy.

• Do not wear pajama pants to class and stand in front of me when I am sitting down, I can see your junk.

• Show some expression on your face when I talk to you.

• Do not smoke before you kiss. It makes me want to throw up.

• Don't call if I don't respond to your texts.
  

• Do not rub my face over and over, you mess up my makeup

• Do not send me texts at 3am to ask me to send you a picture of myself. You know what I look like. And you are being a douche.

• Don't hurt my friends.

Love,
Frances

I saw Karen Elson today, so I memorized her car and license plate number.

Let's do some name dropping


Just got back from NYC.

on the flight there I sat next to a guy with a camera, I asked him about it and he is Dierks Bentley's videographer, Dierks was sitting two seats in front of us. - the video guy had to point him out to me cause i didn't know what he looked like





When we were getting on the subway our second day there I saw Matt Bush. the kid from the commercials for saving minutes




When we were waiting for Vic to pic us up from the airport last night we saw Jeff Bridges near our baggage claim.





AND FINALLY - I just got back back from vintage shopping with Vic and Leslie, we were looking for dresses to wear to the Grammys. We went to Venus and Mars - every time I walk by or go in i always hope to see Karen Elson and maybe Jack White. Well, Karen came in. Is it too much to hope to strike a convo and then become best friends with her? yes. she did not approach me or acknowledge me in any way. bitch. and there were only the 3 of us in there + guy at counter and karen (you dye your hair to make it redder than it is bitch). but I saw her car Ford Flex Limited, maroon, license plate - 768 something something something.

I've been having dates with the night and it's getting pretty serious

date with the night - yeah yeah yeahs

last night we went to motown music mondays at 5 spot.
a new favorite place to be in nashville for me.

kathleen booty danced with some woman who looked like a man (kath thought it was a man). and we kept going back and forth - she had a manly voice and looked like a man, but was wearing a sports bra under her tank. a quote from kath - "I don't know, I'm confused. And he-she is too."

the guy under us is a friend of grace's. he was hilarious. and made me spill my titchy a little.

Love People who Love Life

I owe so much to one of my new friends who is so happy and so bubbly and never says no to having fun with friends or helping friends - as long as it isn't harming herself.

I also owe so much to some of my new friends who have introduced me to so many new things about nashville - not that my old friends didn't, but these are townies and they are showing me parts of the city that I hoped to see and never have.

Nashville is getting better, the more I see and experience, the more open my mind is, and the more open I am to doing new things, the more I love it, and love living.

I have for so long been wanting to find new things in nashville new holes in the walls, and sometimes I do. I don't know when I started being so hungry for discoveries. I always have been, it's just now I HAVE to HAVE them.

I've been wanting to go to Patterson House - cause that's where Jack White has been seen. I went last night with Kathleen. We were going to go to the art crawl but it was moved to next weekend, so we decided to try it. It was so cool. Set up like a speak-easy. and I thought I saw Jack and his wife, but it wasn't them. That couple was dressed like they were from the time period, and the bartenders were dressed up, and the drink selection was awesome. I just wish it wasn't so expensive. sigh, but i will return, so I tipped well. hah

The next place we went to was Suzy Wong's House of Yum. What a gay place. I mean that literally. IT is right beside the gay bars in town, and the decorations and feel - everything very gay. and i usually don't feel uncomfortable around gay ppl, but this place was so up tight.

Then we went to Mercy Lounge. all of these places by the way had very different crowds. and Mercy had quite a variety. and there were a couple of lesbian couples making the people around them very uncomfortable. ie me. but I did see 2 people from american bang there - love.

The final stop - 12th and porter dance party. LATFH all up in the place. what a bunch of wackos. but the lights were cool and the music was cool and it was free so I would go back.

EUNUCH

So, I'm supposed to go out to lunch with a friend in a few minutes. I was feeling pretty hungry so I thought I'd have some snakeries. so I had a kit kat bar. one turned into 5 and now i feel like throwing up. but i can't cause I want to go out with my friend, and then I have to eat too. yuc yuck yuck. i'm gonna vom all up in this place