Maybe I got too Comfortable with Kyle

"i never thought when we started hanging out. in just a months time frances will tell me something about fisting." kyle

1. the fisting
2. "if i touch you inappropriately it is unintentional, i don't have control of my body right now"
3. the sexual harassment
4. finding the right spot
5. penetrating
6. joking about him slinging his stuff around
7. when you drive us will you take your top off?
8. the nipple
9. feeling him up
10. the hand gestures

AND WHAT IF I GET SHOT?!?!?!?!?!?!

there was a gun on the amp apparently, pink and alec saw it. i didn't. i saw the coke though. i was fine with it. but a gun?

i mean dealing is risky business so i guess they need it? i just keep thinking of that scene in boogie nights and it seems so possible.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENN-t1yKWww

i am beloved. they might not shoot me. on the other hand, coke heads have the rep for being paranoid and unpredictable.

there should be a lot of ppl at my funeral.

and i once said that if i was to die young it would be by gunshot, prob while protecting someone else.

did i just choose my death?

they're still exciting and cool. i'm still going to hang out with them.