Riverside
"When you're young, you think everything you do is disposable. You move from now to now, crumpling time up in your hands, tossing it away. You're your own speeding car. You think you can get rid of things, and people too - leave them behind. You don't yet know about the habit they have, of coming back.
Time in dreams is frozen. You can never get away from where you've been."
Margaret Atwood
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
This one likes a good penis joke
on the plane;
Frances - Are those nuts in your pocket (in a seductress voice)
Mom - hahahaha i bet you've used that one before
and there was that comment she made about my birthday card.
i pointed out the badly drawn breasts on the woman.
and she pointed out that they look like sad penises, then claimed that she didn't say penises and asked what kind of penises i was looking at.
good thing i spend a lot of time at bars so my parents expect this of me.
Frances - Are those nuts in your pocket (in a seductress voice)
Mom - hahahaha i bet you've used that one before
and there was that comment she made about my birthday card.
i pointed out the badly drawn breasts on the woman.
and she pointed out that they look like sad penises, then claimed that she didn't say penises and asked what kind of penises i was looking at.
good thing i spend a lot of time at bars so my parents expect this of me.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
This is your life- the music industry
chicago...
i drank a lot.
33 drinks
didn't pay for at least half.
met viva brother at a bar. my friends can thank me for that hook up.
they put us on the list for their show the next night since it was sold out.
went to the show.
after partied with them. bar. tour bus. bar. bar.
despite temptations i was a good girl.
i drank a lot.
33 drinks
didn't pay for at least half.
met viva brother at a bar. my friends can thank me for that hook up.
they put us on the list for their show the next night since it was sold out.
went to the show.
after partied with them. bar. tour bus. bar. bar.
despite temptations i was a good girl.
Monday, July 18, 2011
commissions
I am taking commissions for paintings
special deal -
$50 any subject and size.
all you have to do is provide the canvas - either buy yourself or give me the extra cost.
and if i run out - white paint, matte medium/glaze medium
and you are in charge of framing it i you want a frame.
can be finished in 1 to two weeks time.
special deal -
$50 any subject and size.
all you have to do is provide the canvas - either buy yourself or give me the extra cost.
and if i run out - white paint, matte medium/glaze medium
and you are in charge of framing it i you want a frame.
can be finished in 1 to two weeks time.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
where is the heart? i wouldn't say here.
Reverse culture shock is usually described in four stages:
Stage 1: Disengagement
Stage 2: Initial euphoria
Stage 3: Irritability and hostility
Stage 4: Readjustment and adaptation
Stage 1 begins before you leave your host country. you begin thinking about reentry and making your preparations for your return home. You also begin to realize that it's time to say goodbye to your friends abroad and to the place you've come to call home. The hustle and bustle of final, goodbye parties, and packing can intensify your feelings of sadness and frustration. You already miss the friends you've made and you are reluctant to leave. Or, you may make your last few days fly by so fast that you don't have time to reflect on your emotions and experiences.
Stage 2 usually begins shortly before departure, and it is characterized by feelings of excitement and anticipation- even euphoria - about returning home. This is very similar to the initial feelings of fascination and excitement you may have when you first entered your host country. You may be very happy to see your family and friends again, and they are also happy to see you. The length of this stage varies, and often ends with the realization that most people are not as interested in your experiences abroad as you had hoped. They will politely listen to your stories for a while, but you may find that soon they are ready to move on to the next topic of conversation. This is often one of the transitions to Stage 3.
Stage 3 You may experience feelings of frustration, anger, alienation, loneliness, disorientation, and helplessness and not understand exactly why. You might quickly become irritated or critical of others and of US culture. Depression, feeling like a stranger at home, and the ongoing to go back abroad are also not uncommon reactions. You may also feel less independent than you were while abroad. Most people are then able to move onto Stage 4.
Stage 4 is a gradual readjustment to life at home. Things will start to seem a little more normal again, and you will probably fall back into some old routines, but things won't be exactly the same as how you left them. You have most likely developed new attitudes, beliefs, habits as well as personal and professional goals, and you will see things differently now. the important thing is to try to incorporate the positive aspects of your international experience while abroad with the positive aspects of your life at home in the US.
Stage 1: Disengagement
Stage 2: Initial euphoria
Stage 3: Irritability and hostility
Stage 4: Readjustment and adaptation
Stage 1 begins before you leave your host country. you begin thinking about reentry and making your preparations for your return home. You also begin to realize that it's time to say goodbye to your friends abroad and to the place you've come to call home. The hustle and bustle of final, goodbye parties, and packing can intensify your feelings of sadness and frustration. You already miss the friends you've made and you are reluctant to leave. Or, you may make your last few days fly by so fast that you don't have time to reflect on your emotions and experiences.
Stage 2 usually begins shortly before departure, and it is characterized by feelings of excitement and anticipation- even euphoria - about returning home. This is very similar to the initial feelings of fascination and excitement you may have when you first entered your host country. You may be very happy to see your family and friends again, and they are also happy to see you. The length of this stage varies, and often ends with the realization that most people are not as interested in your experiences abroad as you had hoped. They will politely listen to your stories for a while, but you may find that soon they are ready to move on to the next topic of conversation. This is often one of the transitions to Stage 3.
Stage 3 You may experience feelings of frustration, anger, alienation, loneliness, disorientation, and helplessness and not understand exactly why. You might quickly become irritated or critical of others and of US culture. Depression, feeling like a stranger at home, and the ongoing to go back abroad are also not uncommon reactions. You may also feel less independent than you were while abroad. Most people are then able to move onto Stage 4.
Stage 4 is a gradual readjustment to life at home. Things will start to seem a little more normal again, and you will probably fall back into some old routines, but things won't be exactly the same as how you left them. You have most likely developed new attitudes, beliefs, habits as well as personal and professional goals, and you will see things differently now. the important thing is to try to incorporate the positive aspects of your international experience while abroad with the positive aspects of your life at home in the US.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Kat Dancer
My friends are so dear to me. Though they may pass through my life quickly they are always in my mind and living memories. I have met some of the most fascinating and amazing people in my travels and I am so happy to say that we still keep in contact. 6 messages from 4 people in 1 day!! in traveling you meet people and you may get along well or you may not get along, but you chat and you bond because you need each other. and little do you know but you will go through the same things.
this is from a message that a friend sent me. ps. that is 25C not F
When I first arrived in Spain at the beginning of June I sank deep into a state of culture and life shock, it seemed so harsh being removed from the life I had been living in Asia. For two days I was bundled in blankets and wool sweaters against the 'cold' (25 degrees). I felt as though I had been uprooted and dropped into a state of limbo... so planning for a return to Canada and all the people I need to reconnect with, all the things to do, became very important for me.
this is from a message that a friend sent me. ps. that is 25C not F
When I first arrived in Spain at the beginning of June I sank deep into a state of culture and life shock, it seemed so harsh being removed from the life I had been living in Asia. For two days I was bundled in blankets and wool sweaters against the 'cold' (25 degrees). I felt as though I had been uprooted and dropped into a state of limbo... so planning for a return to Canada and all the people I need to reconnect with, all the things to do, became very important for me.
I look forward to being able to return to Thailand and Bali, I do not know how I will make all these things happen, but there are things I have to do, and now I have so many more friends in many different places, I want to keep all the connections alive. I miss the dancing!
Bali, and all my new friends... are constant sparkles in my memory.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
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