Manipulation
I don't know what it's like to manipulate other ppl. Sometimes I wish that it was a skill that I possessed. But let me tell you - I am getting better at it. I am learning to use my wiles. An example - Daryl. I know that I can get free/cheap things out of him. So I do. Do I feel bad about it? Maybe a little, but think of all the money I'm saving.
Intimidation
I intimidate one or more of my teachers. I am that good. Or that serious about what I do. My painting teacher def looks scared of me sometimes, and often you can tell that she is thinking about what she says very carefully before she says it to me. and she has that look. The look that you get when you are trying to read the other persons expressions and personality to play with it so that the two of you can cope. She is trying.
The Threat
Another skill that I recently learned - it goes along with the womanly wiles - Making others feel uncomfortable saying something that is not at all awkward. I was talking to this guy that is in one of my classes and he was trying to tell me something. I guess my face showed no expression or recognition - which really I was just listening to him and waiting for him to finish talking. But he got really awkward and suddenly stopped talking and then said something like - "awkward." and in my head I was thinking - how is this awkward? who in this general area is feeling awkward? certainly not me. I was feeling confident. def channeling some karen o. but this poor soul was threatened by me. heheheh.
The Miscommunication
This final one goes with having red hair. Apparently all red heads look alike. How unobservant can you be to believe this statement? So I was walking through the Grand Atrium to run to my car to get my fucking Bible for NT. btw it is fun now that I have a cool group. so I was walking through this large open area - just me walking to the parking garage and some dude walking in the opposite direction. Generally when you see someone in this area and you do not know them you look in the opposite direction and pretend to not see them/be lost in thought, or play on your phone - in my case pretending to text someone so as not to use up my texts for the month or bother any of my friends, or in cases that you fail at these 2 options and you make eye contact you either give a warm smile or a challenging stare. - the stare is a bit risky. This is a small university and ppl have friends. So I was walking through, I made eye contact with this kid far away - bad move already. I tried to play it off -I was looking all around trying to avoid eye contact. In doing so I accidentily caught his eye again. I got out my phone and opened it to start my texting strategy. Just as I was looking down I noticed through my parifs that there was movement beside me. unusual movement. The dude and I were now somewhat even with one another and he was waving. waving. wildly. I looked over with him and saw that he was clearly waving at me. He was smiling and mumbling something like "hi hows it going?" I looked uncomfortably back at him, giving him a smile so as not to be a bitch. but my face totes said - what are you doing? who the fuck do you think I am? I have never seen you. - and that is what I was thinking. Clearly this guy was mistaken and thought I was someone else - someone else with red hair. And I had to respond to his wave also because he might end up hating this chick whoever she might be bc she did not respond to his hello. plus i responded cause he looked like a fool. but I ended up embarrassed and feeling foolish. as I reached the door my eyes were watering I was so embarrassed. maybe this guy knows a little influence strategies of his own. to which I say - kudos, kudos to you fool.
